thanks for all of your support fellas, i really appreciate it, it's helping too! here's an update:well i ended up calling her yesterday evening, ( yeah i know stupid move right?) well it didn't turn out to be so stupid. i actually think i needed final closure on things, and that's what i got. I mean, yesterday, i was having a million CRAZY thoughts going through my head, one of which was me leaving everything i have here and moving down there to be with her, if she would do that. i was going nuts! Thankfully, she told me everything was too late, that she had moved on and she wanted me to move on too. She said she didn't love me the way she used to. which is understandable... i mean i think you guys are right when you said that in my head i made her something that i wanted when she really wasn't. I have to keep thinking about the bad things about her/our relationship, because while i was in it, i was pretty unhappy too, and the bad outweighed the good in this case. i guess there was a reason why i didn't move down to San Diego in the first place, maybe it was because i didn't love her like i thought i did, i dont know but there was a reason why i didnt.anyways, i'm doing a little better now, thanks to you guys. It's still a little tough and things still run through my head, but it's not quite as bad. it's hard forgetting her email and phone number when i've been writing it a ton of times over the last year. but i'm trying tho. If you guys have any more advice, i'd definately love to have it! thanks again sly bros.
Hey bros!well here's a little update for you guys in case you were wondering, and i thank all of you for your concern, especially peripheral, thanks a lot bro!anyways, things are getting better. I've gotten rid of most of everything that had to do with her, still a few more things that i have to get rid of, but that'll happen SOON!! I still think about her, that's natural i guess, at least it's not all the time like it was...it's cut WAY down which is good...sometimes i get a little bummed but i'm kind of re-doing my thinking about her and realizing more and more that the BITCH AINT WORTH IT. Why should i be all down and stuff when she had some problems that i really hated about her? Why should i be down about her when she didn't care and just found someone else RIGHT OFF THE BAT?... i shouldn't care, and every day, more and more i'm not caring, which is good and i thank you guys for your encouragement along the way!!Anyways, when it comes to other ladies, i'm QUITE the shy guy... it sucks... even this last saturday i was out and had a good amount of "courage juice" in me, but still nothin! i mean, i used to know how to talk to girls, but it's like whenever i'm dating a girl for a good length of time, i totally lose my game!! i dont know, i'm kind of a head case when it comes to that... too shy to approach a girl and start a convo....any suggestions other than "nut up and do it" ?
i need to get this chick out of sight out of mind....i was doing so well too... damn it.... i told her i dont want her to text me or anything... and i really hope she doesn't, this is sh*t guys, i need help!!!