Hi Guys,
I have been a member of this Site for around 18 months now I think and check on here almost every day as to what you guys are on about, but I am not that regular a poster. It occurred to me that I personally feel like i have gone through somewhat of a journey over the past few years and knowingly or not this Site has played a large part in that.
When I was about 18 my mates used to rib me about a receeding hairline. At that point I didnt really get what they were going on about, I was confident, strong minded and took it in my stride. When I was about 23 people started to notice me thinning and so as a consequence my hair got shorter and shorter. However I started to be a little aware of the situation.
My MPB I suppose started to bother me when I was 27. I just left a 7 year relationship, and wisely or not got into another one fairly quickly (although she is still my partner and mother of my beautiful daughter Maisie). I didnt realise how hard things had hit me and I went through a really tough time and self evaluation. It was during that time that i really started to pay attention to the fact that i was balding, and it sent me into a whirlwind of neurosis wondering what people thought, analysing every last hair and comparing myself to every bald guy out there. It became an obsession which for a guy who was generally determined to hit life head on, address challenges and take things in my stride, was foreign ground for me.
I can honestly say that coming to terms with my baldness was a long and at times painful process and even now I have moments where i would say i am not quite there (I am now 30). Strangely enough my worries didnt centre around the fact that I was losing my hair, as i could rationalise the fact that it happens and there were plenty of others in my shoes. Strangely enough, my worries centred solely around head shape and the way in which my hair was deteriorating which i perceived to be strange for such a young guy.
The shape of my head, I guess I just hated my profile, slighly square head with one or two lumps and bumps. In terms of the type of hair loss, my hair disappeared fast and I have quite a pointy head so from the side you can see quite a lot of scalp above the shadow, I hated this for ages, and in fact at times still do. Here is an image from a great Site that shows a similar level of hair loss.
http://www.pbase.com/ira_morenberg/image/84531311However the point of this post and something i have been meaning to post for some time is.......
I dont think i am naturally a sly guy, i suspect given a choice i would have hair, although miraculously this is changing.
For the first time in 3 years recently i actually looked in a mirror and was happy with what I saw, certainly in terms of the slyness anyway! I have started to stop the comparisons and actually enjoy being sly.
What I really wanted to say I suppose is that there are many people on here who are going through or have gone through various levels of upset and trauma and that is in now way unusual or stupid. Many women spend their entire lives worrying about their weight!
As I said though this Site has helped me through some really tough times, even though I havent previously posted that much about them, so I just wanted to say thanks to a great bunch of people, who are supportive, at times funny and predominently insane, or is that just you Timmy?