I understand how you feel. After my first head shave I was told that i should let it grow out again just because the people i mingled with felt intimidated by the 'new' me & wanted me to assimilate (be like them)..... most of them looked like shaggy sheep dogs!
Mistakenly, I listened to them.About a year later i was out for a walk (it was summer) and felt a bit hot & sweaty. I walked past my regular barber & something made me stop & turn back towards the shop.I walked in, was called to the seat. My barber asked me if i wanted my regular haircut (a #3 top & #2 back and sides) - I didn't say anything, only nodded my head. He gave me my regular cut & then said that it was a bit hotter than normal & asked me if i wanted to go shorter - i nodded. He buzzed my head to a #1 all over, let me see the look & then said - "shorter?".... I nodded in agreement - he buzzed me down to a uniform #0000 all-over - very short & then shaved my head nice & smooth. Later, I was asked by my friends why the drastic change? My answer was simple: "This is the real me. I am bald by choice & staying that way!" I had come back to "the BALD side".
Cris, it is time for you to come back to the "BALD side", friend.