Thank you for all of the prompt replies! I sincerely appreciate the warmth I have been met with, and the understanding of my feelings, because I'm aware of how dramatic, vain, and obnoxious my original post probably sounded. Like I said, half way through writing, it became more of a therapeutic blog post than a forum thread, but I just decided 'to hell with it, this is how I really feel' and post it anyways.I'm confident that my hair loss is something that I will come to terms with, and despite what it may sound like for those of you who were gracious enough to read my entire post, I have been making strides towards acceptance for years, this is just sort of a set back. I think we all have those moments of anger, frustration, and depression, at least in the earlier stages, and that's kind of where I'm at.In reference to my girlfriend, she was very excited to see my new "haircut", when she saw it, her response was underwhelming. She looked at it and said "I liked it better last time" (as in last time I had my hair cut short, which was quite some time ago, and before my hairline had receded so badly). I pointed this out to her, and actually got a little bit mad at her for not liking it more, since her encouragement was a lot of why I worked up the courage to do it, so it felt a little bit like she hung me out to dry! She later made a lot of positive comments, saying that it instantly made me look more jacked, and that it accentuated my body. She likes rubbing my head, and I do genuinely think she likes it. I really hit the jackpot when finding a girlfriend, because I seem to have found one of the good ones who is very attractive, and yet very okay with my hair loss. To her, it seems to be a non issue, and she has stated on more than one occasion that she really doesn't care how much hair I have on my head, as long as I stay in shape, and keep some stubble, that's the look she digs anyways!I don't overlook that, and I know I'm very fortunate to have someone like her.Unfortunately I have to deal with a whole world of people out there, who are not all as accepting as my girlfriend. I have a lot of coping skills to develop, a lot of humility to gain, and a long road in front of me. The only way past it is through it, and I'm ready to rock. Cheers to baldness.
I believe its worse for us in a college setting who have to be around 99% of people who still have all their hair. I always wear a hat when I go out because I just feel really insecure without a hat and it sucks because I know people can sense that.
Another thing that makes this extremely hard for me is the fact that right before/around the time I decided to go fully sly, I found out a girl Ive liked since freshman year(senior now) now liked me. We still talk a good bit via text but when we get around each other I cant help but to think she remembers me when I had hair and I just get really self conscious and cant be myself. I really need to get over this soon or else shes just gonna move on.