Also, if I do do it I am most likely going to buzz it short first. If I follow through I am waiting until vacation so I can get a week to get used to it and get a tan on my dome because I think that looks better. I will bring the clippers but I will not know until that day comes on August...
The thing that always got looks from women wasn't particularly my hair but I am tall and athletic...I feel I will be losing my attractivness.
Thanks for the positive feedback...On a deeper side the real reason I am having problems is the anxiety I suffer from. I praise myself just for making it out to lunch with people and not having an attack. It has destroyed my romantic endeavors to say the least. I guess i am stuck in the mentality of when I was 18 when my life got turned upside down from this and holding on to my hair is part of that mental mindset. I guess I am trying to do things that should have been done a decade ago to catch up and turning thirty isn't helping either. That is the true underlying cause of my frustration with my identity I know it. I have lost alot due to this and after 11 years of drugs that don't work I am concentrating on lifestyle changes and they are working a bit. Therapy is working but its no cure.
I have had one or two beers this evening so will keep this brief. But I am 28, balder than anyone I know in terms of quantity of remianing hair, and whilst i dont always like the totally sly look, (I do most of the time) I know one thing for sure, that I look a lot better like this than the alternative. Take a chance, embrace it and grow to love it. Trust me it does feel great after you have shaved