Well, after introducing myself here I think a week ago, I started to think. Thinking about myself and other situations. Don't know if this fits into any other category. I thought about my life and what needs to be improved. Seeing at why the relationships, friendships I've been in were a failure. I was too needy, too self-conscious about myself and didn't want to express anything or improve on it. I was,"too," nice in a sense. Allowed my emotions to get in the way. One night, It hit me. I was just too,"nice," and a pushover.
Than I thought to myself. Should I be like this my whole life, or do something about it? I did something about it. Me being shy was my biggest obstacle, same for being too nice. Than it hit me like a train going 50 miles an hour in high-speed. Women love funny, interesting cocky guys. In this, I started to subtle the emotions and anxiety, self-consciousness that held me back. With this effort, I started going out and communicating with people both men and women, boys & girls. Saying,"hi, my name is so and so," than moving on, with a smile. Shattering some of the anxiety.
Today, I went to an event. With each table and in-line, I greeted people. Went to a table randomly and started talking to people like a charmer. Didn't worry about my bald-head, or how it'll look, or how I dressed or would they even reject me. Than, I even flirted with one girl, but not coming to her in a chump type way. Threw some teasing at her for a while and told her that was something on her nose. She got up from the whole conversation ( lol ), went into the bathroom to check and came out in a furious playful angry way. Never knew I could do something like that before and it was all in me.
Now, In a sense, I've gained like a different perspective in life and wish to continue this for a long time instead of being on the sidelines. Just not afraid anymore like I use to be. Gained also that," I don't give a crap about anything," loose attitude as well. People seem to take account in it, lol, and gave me a bit of respect. I'm becoming like a little badboy, with a gentlemen type approach as well. You guys really made me think. Shouldn't have problems with women now. Use to be really really REALLY nervous around them, but now all I see them as people just like me.
