I have lurked on here for sometime now and posted occasionally.
I guess I am at the lowest point in my life and I don't know where to turn.
I'm late 30's and my hair has been thinning for sometime now and my life over the last 18 months has become hell. Every waking moment has been spent worrying about my hair, I have never been confident and what I did have has well and truly gone.
The reason I am struggling so badly is because there is nothing I can do to fix this problem, I could never go through with a transplant and the risks involved etc. I also can't buzz or shave my head because the shape of my head is so bad, I even get panick attacks seeing the shadow of my head.
I have a wide forehead and my head is very flat from the front and side, it also dips in the middle and not symmetrically, I have wet my hair and can see all of theses things. I feel like it is a ticking time bomb and when it gets too bad I have only one way out, unfortunately suicide (I hope you don't judge me for feeling that way).
My whole existence revolves around maintaining my hair and I am exhausted by it
I know how week I sound and I apologise for that
I don't know why I'm posting this really but just thought I would try to share how I feel and maybe someone understands? I have tried talking it over with family etc but they have no understanding, almost all family have full heads of hair so I guess I can't expect them to understand.
Thanks for listening and sorry for rambling on.