Hi,
My names Ruddy and im a 22 year old college student. Id like to start off by saying that im pretty happy i found this forum. I wasnt really looking for one til about 20 min ago...mostly cause its a boring night, got tired of studying for my exams and all my roommates are home for the weekend, so i thought; "why not".
Heres my story. I think im balding! I started noticing a "thinning" look when i was a senior in high school. I didnt think much of it i guess. It was just a; "hmm, thats weird..oh well" kinda thing. But over the years, ive noticed that my hair has been thinning more and more, and the tell u guys the truth, its eating me up inside..pretty bad too. My family and friends know im losing my lush, theyre not stupid, but they never say anything about it. I feel like everytime i take off my baseball cap - which by the way i never leave the house without
- i feel like everyones looking at my hair and thinking; "oh, Ruddy's balding," so i never take it off. When im on the bus, i always compare my hair to other guys' and try to accept the fact that "its okay". Sometimes i feel a little releived spotting a guy my age whos losing it too, makes me feel like im not the only one and maybe, just maybe, i could feel fine about it...but i never do. I just keep my hat on and pretend that its not happening to me...maybe it'll go away.
I buzzed my head once - lost a bet, long story - it felt pretty good, but i didnt look good. My heads got a weird shape and it made me feel even worst..soooo embarrassing. I always had long hair, ever since i can remember and the fact that i wont have any in a few years is
killing me. Im so self-conscious about it. I dont talk about it with ANYONE. A couple of my buddies are in worst shape. Everyone knows theyre balding, but no one talks about it. They know im balding too, but again, not a word about it is said. I think its sort of an unspoken, hidden social club that we're all in. I look at his air, he looks at mine, we look at eachother for 2 seconds knowing we're thinking about the same thing and just move on. Im not really crying and complaining about all this. I know im balding, i know i'll be regularly shaving my head in a couple of years but i think im just dumbfounded that its happening. I also dont know how to deal with it..emotionally
I dont really know where im going with this, I kinda felt like opening up i guess...see what you experts would say. I lurked around before registering and thought; "hey, these guys are pretty cool". What do u guys think?
*brings in a smooth, cool case of beers for everyone*
CHEERS!
Ruddy!