I had really long hair most of my life and after the second time I donated it to locks of love, I started to notice the MPB coming in. I was also in a position at work where I neede to look a bit more respectable looking, so I started the buzz deal.
I think I had some sort of "Sampson syndrome". I just couldn't be without my hair, I was buzzing it but I still had hair.
The worse the MPB was getting the more I thought "what the ...." if I can't have it all back then I don't want any, so I went for it.
I think I was afraid to change, even though I was changing, it was a drastic change. I was comfortable in my job, and was more concerned about raising my child than how I looked, at least that was what I was telling myself. I remember blowing off the comments of "wow, your losing your hair" with, "its the way its meant to be" and then walking off. All I can say about that response now is "Bullshit"!