Love the name -- very creative.
Firstly, let me say that I admire your openness and honesty in talking about your mental "problems". It takes a fair bit of courage to come out about that stuff and is much better for you putting it out in the open when the time is right [as it obviously is here, now]. In a similar vein putting your face and head "out in the open" is very therapeutic for many people. Before joining the brotherhood on this site I thought that I was the only one who felt so free after whipping my hair off but obviously not so. You look fine, fit and healthy with hair or the #1 and if you make the transition to #0 or totally slick then we all hope that you too experience the freedom from "the tyranny of hair" -- thanks to that opinionated walrus TheSlyBear for the phrase.
When you are looking at yourself in the mirror you are looking at yourself as an object and then projecting that mind-image back onto the mind-image that you have of yourself thus reinforcing it -- even if the image frequently changes as in your case. It might be helpful for you to go to
http://headless.org/ and at least do this 60 second experiment
http://headless.org/experiments/pointing.htmThen do this experiment
http://headless.org/experiments/the-mirror.htmThe mirror experiment shows that what shows in the mirror is just an image that is only representative of you at certain distances but at all distances when you look in the mirror you can see that
what is looking is clear and attributeless. I can say that with a bit of practice that when you look into the mirror you can see more of what is looking and what it is looking out of and you will pay less and less attention to what is being looked at. The image in the mirror is only a very small facet of you [hardly even that really].
Once you get the hang of it every time that you look into the mirror you will be able to physically see [not imagine] that what you are is mostly attributeless, clear and open which is obviously based upon your open attributeless and totally clear and transparent awareness.
My apologies for not being able to explain all this in a clearer way right now but
http://headless.org/ will make things perfectly clear. No religious nonsense or money involved.
As to keeping your mother happy -- my advice is to always try to keep your mother happy especially as she has seen you through some dark times. However, as she obviously has your best interests at heart and really wants you to be as happy as you can be it would probably only take a bit of talking with her to bring her on board to the slick look once you explain how much you want to do it [if you still do]. Also, letting her clearly know that it is totally and quickly reversible would probably also help quite a bit as she would see that you are not obsessing about being slick for life or whatever.
I wish you well, don't forget to stay in contact on the forum.