I also agree with waine. Do what makes you happy, Cris. Don't feel like you have to force yourself to do something you don't particularly enjoy doing. To deny how you feel is to deny who you are. Shave when you want to. Keep it mixed up for now...
If you like your hair being short, but don't like the shaving process, you could even just trim with no guard clippers. Close as you can get without using a blade. Nice and quick, too.