well thank you very much for your responses!
first if i say bald i mean a horseshoe pattern baldness not a chemo looking baldness if you know what i mean.
well, for me i posted already that at this moment my hair is not perfect. actually i started with a new treatment (eucapil) which is a topical and FDA approved. i think that it will make my hair perfect. or maybe it is already??? i cant say at the moment where its shaved.
anyway lets say i get perfect again (if not the decision gets even tougher for me) , then should i stay with the meds?
well some facts...
you see my pic and well i think and other people told me that i look a bit younger than i am from my face (the shaved look makes me look a bit older now). so about 20 i would say.
at this age, its just not "normal" and not "mainstream" to be naturally bald with a horseshoe pattern. people see if you got a shadow of hair or not as long as you are shaved. if you let it grow its a complety other question and i think letting it grow is anyway out of question if you look like 20 (or 23 whatever) and have a horseshoe on your head. then you simply have to shave it to look attractive. i mean well imagine a 23 years old guy (in this case me) with a horseshoe pattern.
so i think if i kick the meds i (1) have to shave and (2) you see the horseshoe pattern.
dunno how people would react to this. -> i think i should take the meds
though one addition. one thing to think of....all this forum and everything we talk about is just appearance. even if you shave your head sly bald you make it coz of your appearance. ok...lets go on...
im very vain. really. and i think (but that s only my own opinion and doesnt have to be taken by you) hair looks better and cooler than the sly bald look ...even if you are bald by choice. but thats only my opinion. remember i shaved it for other reasons than that i wanted to be bald by choice. (mainly coz i want to see how bad my hair really is ....or was i just too drunk when i did it???
) so, im vain + i like hair more (from appearance) . -> i should take the meds
especially if you re very vain , you need to like your appearance so you dont get other problems in your life (psychologically which lead to even more problems with relationships, girls, success, money, and so on).
now we come to money and risks. for me the only reason why i even think about the option of kicking them. first money.....no. from money i would NEVER kick the meds. i spend about 100-130 euros per month in the meds. and this is totally worth it for me if you consider everything i wrote above. especially the psychological problems I get if i dont like my appearance ( i was there big way and am probably still to a part there). these psychological problems lead to so many problems in my life - especially study and money problems that its big way not worth kicking the meds. its just the only way...
so lets finally come to the health risks which is after all the only reason i still think about kicking the meds.
ok....you wont probably know much about this so i tell you coz maybe you find it interesting and its big way important for my decicion.
i take (1) finasterid (propecia or proscar 1/4) , (2) rogaine foam , (3) eucapil , (4) NIZORAL shampoo.....
lets start with the nizoral shampoo. its shampoo and even used against some scalp problems . i dont know much about risks of nizoral shampoo but as far as i heard there is none. its a shampoo so what should it do?
so to the eucapil. the studies showed no real side effects....only some which i know i dont have which wouldnt be really a problem anyway. like scalp irritation, but i dont have it. only problem is ....what if they lie??? i asked a doctor i know to look for me if there is any risk in eucapil. i will know this in 2 weeks. i hope it doesnt have risks and as far as i can say , it shouldnt have since the studies are from the FDA.
then rogaine foam. it can have side effects, but not tough ones. i dont have them, so period. there are many studies , even long term studies i think about it and they didnt show problems. anyway its a topical and so there shouldnt be many problems anyway...
ok to the finasterid which i have the most "fear" of. its very proven and didnt have significant side effects. the only thing im not sure about is if i got libido problems due to it. if i think about it i would say NO.
but its a drug and you never know what it does in 20 years and im never sure if it doesnt lower my libido.
actually i would say i dont have any side effects from any of these treatments.
ok, but im not sure.....
now my thoughts about this...so much happens to you in your life, you take so much food which isnt proven aswell what it does, you do so many stupid things in your life which are bad, think about gen manipulated food, think about all this smog in the air, think about smoking (which i do) and everything which there is....
so i think that i take these drugs is only a little little risk compared to what could happen in my life.
to sum it up, what i fear most are these psychological problems i once got.
i got so much fear of them and i got so much fear that i still have some of them to a minor degree that i will take these risks.
life is always a risk.
its not only about appearance and especially i dont do it coz of girls.
in fact i think i will have more chances with girls now with the shaved head than i had with lets say 17 with hair.
but it doesnt count . what counts big way is how you feel about yourself. and that you love yourself.
and i dont do if im bald.
i respect you for your decisions but its just not me . and if you love yourself bald , then fine. its just ok.
i like to have hair and i love myself with hair....
i know you always can change such an attitude. but it needs much much time if its deep down in yourself and its questionable if you can change it completley.
if i hadnt the choice i would shave my head sly bald and try to change my attitude.
though wait....i would even wear a rug (a good one ) .
or i would shave dunno. anyway i talk to much...
